Thursday, May 12, 2005

Sometimes, when I look deep in your eyes, I swear I can see your soul

Memories of the past few days are so crowded into my head that it almost seems impossible to separate one from the other. The horrid drive through the Western Ghats. The heat of a small West Karnataka town. The crappy showerhead. The extravagant wedding. The smell of jasmine.

She was looking right at me, as I walked up to her, with the rest of our friends. She smiled as I spoke to the man who would take her away from me. As I congratulated him, telling him what a wonderful person she is. She laughed at our jokes, pleased that we both got along so well. She looked so proud. She looked so happy.

As I handed her her gift, our finger brushed against each others'. I looked up at her eyes, to see them welled up with tears. Of happiness at having found the person who completes her. Of sadness at having to leave. Tears that meant a whole lot more than a smile could ever convey, to show how much we mean to each other.

Here's to someone I have know for what seems my entire life. My best friend. Thank you, for always being there. For always arguing. For always understanding.

Thank you, for sharing your soul and letting me share mine.

19 Comments:

At May 12, 2005 9:06 PM, Blogger Grafxgurl said...

*sniff*...........waaaaaaaaaaaaa..
i dont know why... but i feel so saaaaaaaaaaaaaad reading this.... why do people haev to go away!!i wanna keep someone with me ALWAYS!! this is so insecure!! sigh
*ok shut up now*

 
At May 12, 2005 9:15 PM, Anonymous Marleny said...

Isn't it wonderful?! I mean,that people DO go away,and grow up,as we once did,and will do again,and again...and again.Doesn't it make them even more special? The fact that we were part of IT together is something we'll always treasure.I want my friends to grow up,to spread their wings and fly high,very high! I rejoice in it,because i'm still part of IT. ;)

 
At May 13, 2005 1:41 AM, Blogger Swathi said...

dun worry she wud still b there for u.
marriage doesnt change many ppl (like me for instance!)

-Chimera

 
At May 13, 2005 4:21 AM, Blogger Primalsoup said...

I feel strangely melancholic when I read this. It’s sad that people who matter as much must leave. Even though, the cliché spouters will tell you, “Friends are forever”. I want friends to find happiness and all that assorted stuff, it will be nicer if they didn’t have to go far away in that quest. Pardon my ranting and raving! :)
As an aside, I love extravagant weddings, makes me feel smart and rich for not having done that! :)

 
At May 13, 2005 6:16 AM, Blogger Grafxgurl said...

ok now hurry up and post a funny one!!

 
At May 13, 2005 7:37 AM, Blogger Angel said...

:D *sniff*
ahh...pass the kleenex!
how very precious!!

 
At May 13, 2005 10:51 AM, Blogger Vignesh said...

Grrl: Shes not really gone. We will still be in touch. Its just the bittersweet realisation that its over. And thats its a new beginning. Looks to be fun !!

Marl: I couldn't have said it better myself !!

Swathi: I wouldn't know that now would I ?!?! Not having known you and all that...

Soups: Its alright, we all know it and we all feel it. I messaged a common friend when they actually were going though the ceremony and she messaged back saying, that I lose most of my best friends this way. Its true. I think all of my really good friends, who are women, are married now !

Grrl, Interrupted: (get it ??!?!) Will try, though Saturday at work and then Sunday doing nothing in particular, don't make for a happy post !!!

A: Woohoo !! Wadddup yo !!! Missed you so much little one !! Welcome back !! Is Gracy faring better now ?!?!

 
At May 13, 2005 12:41 PM, Blogger wahgnube said...

Ah, the classic dilemma. Having to choose between:

"If you care about someone, set them free."

and

"If you care about someone, keep them locked up in your basement so they can't get married to someone else."

Life is full of hard choices.

 
At May 13, 2005 10:13 PM, Blogger Grafxgurl said...

well, you need never worry bout me.. am one person who is NEVER getting married!!!!

 
At May 13, 2005 10:29 PM, Blogger Vignesh said...

Hmm... both of you seem to be forgetting a third option here...

MARRY THEM !!!!

:))

 
At May 13, 2005 11:17 PM, Blogger Grafxgurl said...

Marry HOo?!?!?!

 
At May 13, 2005 11:28 PM, Blogger eM said...

Awww.. what a sweeeeeeeeeeet story :) None of my friends are married yet, but I'm sure I'll feel EXACTLY the same way then.

 
At May 14, 2005 12:39 AM, Blogger Mangs said...

Aw! I hate weddings.

 
At May 14, 2005 8:55 AM, Blogger Senthil said...

Well, at least you found someone whose soul was visible through her eyes... better than moi - I could see the back of her head when I looked into her eyes...

 
At May 15, 2005 9:09 AM, Blogger Vignesh said...

Grrl: No, you DO NOT want to marry my friend, Hoo. He, umm.. isn't your type ;)

eM: Just you wait. They will start dropping out like flies at the sight of honey. Literally.

Mangs: I lurrveee weddings. The food, the maamis and maamas sitting around and nitpicking on little things about the wedding. The food. The general happiness. Oh, and did I mention, FOOOD !?!?!

Senti: It took me a while to figure out what exactly the connection was. But hilarious story there !!

 
At May 15, 2005 9:55 PM, Blogger Kumari said...

:) Looks like you're growing up too...and yeah it is tough to change your life, decide twice before making an on the spur run to Qwiky's for a mug with an ami,make sure there is dinner for you-know-who when he returns, hope that he is not in a bad mood... sigh!

 
At May 17, 2005 10:09 AM, Blogger Vignesh said...

LadyK: Ummm... yeah... you do that. While I... umm... get back to an empty apartment :((

 
At May 25, 2005 11:45 PM, Blogger Aqua said...

awwww...somehow yr post has made me feel sad too. it is the things that were said or the things unsaid that touched a chord?

 
At June 11, 2005 1:58 AM, Blogger Sista T said...

I know its a bit late, but I was just reading your blog and this post really touched me(that is so inadequate). I know how that feels, have been on the other side and trust me even if there had been no tears (as in my case) the feeling is still as strong. And will always be as strong. It may be different, but in some ways it will never change.

 

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