Thursday, March 17, 2005

Summer of '96

As the song goes, it was the summer of love. My first love, M. In as much as the fond all-too-cutesey affections of two teenagers and the awkwardly tender yet oh-so-lovely touches, can be termed love. I had met her at a party about a year back, through a mutual friend, P. Now, P was a person beyond compare. She was the craziest coot I have ever had the pleasure of knowing. A tomboy to the last molecule of her existence, she and I have had more fun baiting other boys than I have the courage to tell.

Anyways, back to M and me. It goes to show the maturity (or the lack thereof) of the people involved in the relationship, when, over a period of a year of being together, you have NO fights at all. It was a blast... parties, sneaking out and catching a smoke, making sure the either both of us smoke or neither does (coz it used to... umm... intefere with the... tonguing) and all sorts of cute stuff like that. It was all very hush, hush though, acting all friends-like in public, couldn't keep our hands off each other given a moments privacy. All of us, me, P, M, S, Sr and G, got together and buried a time capsule in P's backyard. Come July 31st, 2016, its time to go dig !

Ahh... that was probably the best summer of my entire life. Looking back at the friends, looking back at the uncomplicated-ness of the all those relationships, it almost seems, like a different life. Like a different me. M left for Bombay at the end of that summer. She called me up on my birthday, 4 years later. That was the last I heard of her. I have thought about tracking her down many times after that, only to realise that... sometimes you have to let go, to really have.

To the person whose posts inspired this one, thank you. I'm talking to you. Yes, you.

17 Comments:

At March 17, 2005 10:11 PM, Blogger Grafxgurl said...

sigh... makes you feel so warm and fuzzy inside dont it....makes you want those days back.. i fidn i constantly crave them back again..and again..that world seemed so golden and warm lit.. and these days .. life seems so stark.. with white tubelight lighting..

 
At March 17, 2005 10:17 PM, Blogger Grafxgurl said...

OOH!! i jest SAW!! you linkidinkd me!!

 
At March 18, 2005 1:21 AM, Blogger Vignesh said...

Link love is good, no ?!?! :)

I know.. but I try not to think of this in the context of people I no longer have in my life. Its wierd, but as far as M goes, it felt good to let her go. It felt right. It felt as if the relationship had wound itself to a close. What surprises me is that back then, I was mature enough to handle that decision and let go. Whats wrong with me now ?

 
At March 18, 2005 2:43 AM, Blogger First Rain said...

1996. Hmmm. That would put me in class XII. School. Was that so long ago? Some memories never fade. People do, fade in, fade out of our lives. But some memories stay on.

You writing is... uncomplicated. Feels refreshing.

 
At March 18, 2005 2:51 AM, Blogger Kumari said...

some memories are good to forget...while some are better to relive and then there are some memories which are best left untouched...

 
At March 18, 2005 2:58 AM, Blogger Vignesh said...

Rainy: Liar !! XII indeed !! Thanks a ton ! Here I am trying to make myself seem sophisticated and all that, and you call me simple. Thanks and thanks ;)

LadyK: And then there are those memories that itch the back of your head for a couple of years and then wham ! There I am !!

 
At March 18, 2005 4:01 AM, Blogger Anurag said...

Vignesh,

Letting go is easy. Getting over is not, I believe. What someone (who had just broken up with his girlfriend) told me was that at times like this it is best to talk about those memories as possible. You have finite memories. The more you talk about them, the more insignificant they become... Purge yourself.

 
At March 18, 2005 4:02 AM, Blogger Anurag said...

I meant, "talk about those memories as much as possible".

 
At March 18, 2005 5:29 AM, Blogger Angel said...

'96...I was 11...hmmmm.have I said too much??
summer...summer meant basketball, playing with cold water and cleaning the
neighbourhood and getting other kids to do so too....I did that with a passion that no-one could take away.
yeah, I'm an activist.
err...Vig, thanx for taking me back to SO long ago...*sigh*
and guys, at 11, ewwwwwwwwwwwwwww!

 
At March 18, 2005 5:33 AM, Anonymous neha said...

1996. Finished Class 9. :)
But have clear memories of bashing someone up.

 
At March 18, 2005 5:35 AM, Blogger First Rain said...

Liar? duh? How come? If I am 26 now, 9 years ago I was 17 and that would put me in class XII wudn't it (atleast for half of the year it would)? Unless I seriously botched up my math I do not see how could I be lying!

and

Uncomplicated does not mean unsophisticated. Take a compliment for what it is... a compliment.

 
At March 18, 2005 8:11 AM, Anonymous Sini said...

I love that cathartic feeling when you're finally over someone. I've had it go both ways. One time I knew going our separate ways was the best thing (even if he didn't) yet another time I showed a brave face and then stayed in bed for 3 days. (Hindsight is 20/20 because now I realize that we weren't meant to be). I remember listening to Chris Isaak's "Forever Blue" CD over and over again. That CD is the most beautiful break-up album ever.

 
At March 18, 2005 8:47 PM, Blogger jax said...

"Looking back at the friends, looking back at the uncomplicated-ness of the all those relationships, it almost seems, like a different life."

Very true! Looking back to those days, you were either 'in the gang' or you were 'not in the gang'. Its coming into the late twenties where your 'individuality' is questioned,mostly by yourself!

 
At March 20, 2005 8:51 PM, Blogger Vignesh said...

A: Yes, I'm sure you were playing a lot with cold water.. to hose down all those boys whow couldn't stop following you around !!

N: Damn that was probably me ! I remember getting whacked by too many women in those days... were you ever in Chennai at that point in time ?!?!

Rainy: I was just kidding dude !! I don't remember exactly why I made that remark about the age, I think it was because I read somewhere that you were 21 or something like that... my bad though. And yes, thanks for the compliment... that was my asinie effort at being modest ;)

Sini: That is something like what I am going thru right now. The relationship I was referring to in the post, was much simpler... there wasn't much for a catharsism...

Jax: Yes, it was soooo binary. No grey !! Wasnt it just great !!

 
At March 20, 2005 9:02 PM, Anonymous neha said...

Chennai : Second, first, third whatever home.
:)
High chances. 1996. Full of anger, and new found hormones! Enough to kick anyone in sight.

 
At March 21, 2005 12:23 AM, Blogger Grafxgurl said...

well....i guess now .. things dig deeper into you.. and become part of your blood.. so you cant let go.. no matter how hard you try.,..
i guess you can only absorb it.. and let it go with the flwo so to speak. and remember the good times and cherish them..

 
At March 22, 2005 9:45 PM, Blogger rapunzel said...

u did all of that before u were in college!!!:p man!!!!were u guys fast or wot!!!!hehehe.

 

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